The aches of Football only without the football.

Apr 2009 after going through a brief spell of giving up my much loved Sport of American Football, I returned to training. The Monday morning after, I woke up feeling like I had been involved in a minor car accident. My first though was “Football, how I’ve missed you”.

Fast forward 1 year to April 2010. I wake up on a Monday morning feeling like I have been involved in a minor car accident, this time my thoughts were “Will this ever get any better”

Last October, I was diagnosed with Post Viral Fatigue Symptoms (PVFS) after having a virus. The virus itself really hit me for 6, I could barely lift my body out of bed, I ached everywhere. Doctors diagnosed it as a viral infection that would clear up. 3 weeks later and my body still felt battered. Doctors this time sent me packing with advice to return if I wasn’t any better with 4 weeks. 4 weeks later and another visit to the doctors and I was diagnosed with PVFS.

3 months later and another trip to the docs, this time armed with a list of all the things I have felt wrong with me over the previous 3 months, my main gripe being this crippling headache that caused me to miss 4 days of work. Everything on the list was explained to me. The headaches, the short concentration span, the broken sleep, the forgetfulness and the headaches. I had now been upgraded from PVFS to CFS (Chronic Fatigue Syndrome) or its previous guise of ME.

I know that this was coming; I knew it would soon become CFS/ME. What do I do now? My caring wife had already took steps on this and had researched vitamins and minerals to take to help make things easier. I take 4 tablets every night, I am not sure if they are helping but I do know that they are not making it worse. The hardest thing about it all is my exercise levels, or lack off. I was always a fairly active person. I would train a couple of times a week, go to the gym, play 5 asides. Now I am limited to walking around the supermarket or the walk from where I park the car. There are times where the idea of walking up the stairs to go to my bed leaves me sitting on the couch longer than I should be. I have 2 boys who love it when there dad throws them about and chases after them, unfortunately this can’t happen every day.

As I am typing this it makes me realise how lucky I am. It makes me realise that without my wife I may be in a pit of depression with no way out. She is the one that helps me through the bad days. She is the one that distracts our boys so that I can have a rest. She is the one that drags me up when I am starting to feel down. Maybe I don’t tell her enough but without her I would be nothing and I love her so much.

I guess in the end football has prepared me for these pains, only this time there is no glory.

8 comments:

  1. Excellent first post. I am loving the blog look. Keep it up and I look forward to reading many more posts in the furture. xx

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  2. Like Susan says excellent post.. you "Mann's" are very brave with your posts. I am sure it will help talking about it. Good luck :)

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  3. Smashing read, Robert, well done.

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  4. Hi. What a great post! Like you I also suffer from CFS. I've been off work nearly a year now though had symptoms a few years. Like you I would be nowhere if it weren't for my husband, we are very lucky aren't we? You sound like you are staying very positive which is great. It's so hard to do I know! I look forward to reading many more of your posts. In my brain fog state I have followed you twice, ah well you deserve two follows!

    Take care of yourself and if you ever want to chat I'm more than happy!

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  5. Nice work Manny, written the way you play.. loads of heart.

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  6. I'm sure your lovely wife will be more than honoured to look after you, you both obviously have a very loving relationship. You have written a very honest post, maybe this will be a good way to help others understand what you are going through.

    CJ xx

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  7. Stay Strong bro! If you need any help me just ask! Very good blog, a lot of people don't understand CFS u put across well, helped me understand it a wee bit better.

    Go G-Men!!

    Porty

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  8. Such a moving and honest first post x

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